Transitions Parts I-III Author: S. Hughes Email: shughes002@yahoo.com Rating: G Summary: A look at another episode in the life of young Nicholas Fallin. Author's Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of a character in this story to any person living or dead is purely coincidental. Likewise, any resemblance between an organization depicted in this story and any such actual organization is purely coincidental. --+-- PART I It was four o'clock on Tuesday and Nicholas was sitting outside his father's office at Fallin & Associates. He sat quietly watching attorneys busily move throughout the halls, clearly on important missions. When his thoughts were not being occupied with curious observations, he sat with his head down, looking at the floor with his shoulders slightly hunched. Tuesdays were notoriously bad days, as this was the one afternoon each week that Mrs. Portis was off-duty. Consequently, Nicholas would have to wait after school at his father's office until all pressing legal transactions were taken care of for the day before he could go home. While clutching a sealed envelope in his hands, Nicholas knew that today would probably be one of the absolute worst Tuesdays ever. The letter was given to him by his math teacher with explicit instructions to make sure that his father received it. Nicholas, who attended a prestigious private school for boys, was an extremely brilliant student who never turned assignments in late and consistently scored A's on his exams and daily work. However, things had recently changed significantly, unbeknownst to his father, and he was worried about the contents of the letter. He sat outside his father's office tracing his every step and word throughout the course of the day, wondering what he did at school to prompt such an unfortunate situation. Meanwhile, inside his father's office, he could hear his father's booming voice and he could tell by the tone that his father was in a no-nonsense kind of a mood. Burton Fallin's secretary, Shiela, was sitting at her desk and she could tell that Nicholas seemed more distant than usual. Nicholas looked tense and disheveled, his tie was a bit crooked and his uniform no longer had that crisp look it possessed at the start of the day. "Nicholas, can I get you something while you wait? A soda, something to eat, or a magazine to look at?" Sheila said with a smile. "No, thank you. I'm fine, but thank you for asking." Nicholas politely responded, with a quick glance up to Sheila. "Okay." Sheila said with a slightly concerned look on her face. " Well, let me know if you change your mind. Your father should be through with this meeting in a few minutes and it doesn't look like he has anything else scheduled for the day." Burton had warned Nicholas several times that on Tuesdays he was not to bother any of the staff. He was to sit quietly and start on his homework. Normally this was not a problem, but today Nicholas could not concentrate on anything but the dreaded letter. Nicholas began to think about his mother and how he knew that she would understand, despite the potentially awful contents of the note. His mother, Anne, who had died of cancer only a few months ago, would have spoken softly, caressed his curly blonde locks, and told him that everything would be okay. Instead, he would have to deal with his father, a stern man who held little patience for any sort of misbehavior or disobedience. Soon Nicholas heard footsteps approaching the door and his father's voice could be heard loud and clear. "Thanks for stopping by gentlemen." Burton said as he escorted three distinguished looking men out of his office. " I will have the paperwork completed and we will meet tomorrow at 11:00 to close the deal. As always, it's a pleasure doing business with you. Have a good night." "Thank you, Burton. Excellent work. We are looking forward to closing this deal as well." Remarked one of the clients with a nod. Nicholas sat looking up with slight admiration. He knew his father was a very successful and powerful attorney, but he rarely had the opportunity to see him interact with clients. Occasionally, he would over-hear a conversation on the phone, but nothing more. Burton was about to turn and head back into his office when he quickly glanced down and saw Nicholas. 'Hey, Nicholas," Burton said, "I almost didn't see you there! How was your day at school?" "Umm. It was fine." Nicholas said tentatively. "Did you get your school work done?" Burton asked. "I did some of it, but I still have a bit more to do." Nicholas said as he looked down. "Well, why don't you get started on that while I finish the paperwork on this merger. I should be done in about thirty minutes and then I will get you out of here." Burton stated while entering his office, not truly desiring a response. Nicholas sat there still clutching his letter. He didn't know if he should wait to show his father or ask Sheila's permission to knock on his father's door to discuss it now. The suspense was killing him and he knew that his father would only be more upset if he withheld the information, whatever it was, when an opportunity existed to disclose its contents on an earlier occasion. Then again, Nicholas thought about the drive home and how he would have to listen to either silence or sharp reprimands the entire time. This vision encouraged Nicholas to ponder the idea of not showing his father the letter, period. Prior to Anne's death, Nicholas lived almost entirely with his mother. After the divorce, Burton moved out and bought another expensive home in a nearby affluent neighborhood. Nicholas rarely saw his father after the divorce, as he frequently canceled weekend visits or would simply be non-existent when Nicholas was over. Burton Fallin was an extreme workaholic, always placing work before his family. Nicholas never felt truly connected with his father, but he knew enough to feel intimidated and nervous in his presence. Nicholas recalled many situations in which he accidentally made a mess, forgot to do a chore assigned to him at home, or had a temporary lapse in his manners, all of which resulted in trips to the study for firm reprimands and punishments when his father was home to witness the scene. Anne, however, was never one to yell or lose control. Best of all, she would never disclose mishaps to Burton unless it was absolutely necessary. Nicholas wished more than anything that his mother was here to help smooth this fiasco out. After a few minutes, Nicholas mustered up the courage to make a move. "Sheila?" Nicholas said assertively. "May I go in and talk to my father if he is not busy?" "Hmmm...let me call in and see." Sheila said with a smile, somewhat surprised to hear the request. The phone rings in Burton Fallin's office while Burton is deep in thought. "Yes." Burton says abruptly into the phone. "Nicholas was wondering if he could speak with you for a moment. May I send him in?" Sheila asked while looking at Nicholas. "Okay, sure...I can stop for a minute." Burton said with annoyance as he ran his hand through his thinning hair. "Nicholas. You may go in if you would like?" Sheila said with smile. "Thank you." Nicholas said looking down at the floor. He slowly stood up, straightened his school uniform and even remembered to button his sport coat, the way his father instructed him to do (something he always forgot, as he despised the constriction it created). With the letter clenched in his sweaty hands, Nicholas approached the door and knocked. He waited to hear his father grant him permission to enter and he tentatively opened the door. Before he could turn to close the door, his father beckoned, "Nicholas, what do you need? I am in the middle of a very important deal and the more interruptions I have, the longer we will be stuck here." "I'm sorry." Nicholas said looking down. "It's not that important, I can talk to you later." As Nicholas began to head back towards the door, he was stopped by his father's stern, directive voice. "Have a seat Nicholas. What is it that you want to discuss?" Nicholas approached one of the two handsome leather chairs that sat angled in front of his father's massive desk. He sat in the chair that was on his father's right-hand side, as this was the location that he tended to take when he was ordered to "sit" in front of his father in his study at home. The chair, although comfortable, seemed to absorb all of Nicholas's body. He felt like a tiny child trying to see over the desk to his father. "Umm....umm..." Nicholas said as he fidgeted in the chair, unconsciously crumpling the letter slightly. "Nicholas! I don't have time for this! What is it??" Burton scolded. Nicholas swallowed hard and tried to put himself together. "Ummm...today at school one of my teachers gave me a letter and asked me to make sure that you received it. So, ummm...here is the letter." Nicholas tried to stretch his arm out to hand the envelope to his father while avoiding eye contact, but he was forced to stand since he was unable to reach. He felt light headed when he made the move and so he quickly sat back down in the chair. Burton grabbed the letter with a look of impatience. Nicholas couldn't tell if the disdained expression was a result of the crinkled and damp envelope or the shear fact that he was going to have to tend to a school matter that he did not have time for. Burton picked up his glasses off his desk and proceeded to open the envelope. Nicholas felt every muscle in his body contract and his stomach was in knots. Burton cleared his throat and began to read the letter silently. A few times during this process, Burton paused from his reading to look at Nicholas with a confused expression. Each time, Nicholas was staring down with shoulders rounded in a submissive position. "Well...this is interesting." Burton said with a puzzled look on his face. "I'll call the school tomorrow and discuss the matter further with the headmaster. Well then...I am going to get these papers in order and we will leave shortly. Okay?" Burton stated in a hastened matter. "If that is all, you are excused, Nicholas." Nicholas responded quietly, "Yes, sir." He didn't know whether or not to feel relieved or concerned by the course of events that had transpired as he walked out of the office. He wanted desperately to ask his father what the letter said, but he could tell that it was best to consider the matter closed until further notice. The suspense was unbearable. Perhaps his father was waiting to address the issue with more seriousness when they arrived home? This was for sure going to be a long, stressful day. Burton Fallin sat at his desk, now unable to concentrate on the critical business deal that lay before him. He slowly rubbed his mustache and brow as he pondered the disturbing letter from Oxridge Academy. Apparently, the teaching and administrative staff had noticed extreme changes in Nicholas over the last month. The letter indicated that he seemed withdrawn, lacked a desire to engage in social activities with other students, and was not putting forth his usual academic effort. The last comment surprised Burton the most, as the recent progress report he received indicated that Nicholas was still at the top of his class and earning solid A's in his coursework. How could things have fallen apart so suddenly? Burton felt a twinge of anger towards the staff for compiling such a seemingly erroneous letter. Clearly they did not know his son. The letter indicated that Nicholas was not showing any interest in group learning activities and preferred to stay in the library during breaks when most students capitalized on the opportunity to head outdoors and play a brief round of basketball. Burton could not comprehend why this should be perceived as a dilemma. After all, isn't that what school is about..obtaining scholastic success? Since when was dodge ball a core requirement for an Ivy League college education? Burton began to think about the need to find a new school that would value and appreciate Nicholas for his studious endeavors and not view him as a misplaced child. An hour later, Burton finally felt he was at a point where he could leave the office for the evening, aside from a few loose ends he could take care of from his study at home. He grabbed his coat and hat from the closet in his office and approached the office door. Before he opened the door, he let out a large sigh and promised himself that he would keep his cool. "Nicholas. Are you ready to go?" Burton asked as he was locking his office door behind him. "Yes, sir." Nicholas proclaimed as he began to place the textbook he had been reading back in his school bag. "Sheila, here are the papers that I will need to have typed and finalized for my meeting tomorrow morning at 11:00. I should be in by 7:00 so, if you have any questions feel free to give me a call." Burton said as he dropped a thick folder onto Sheila's desk. "Not a problem, Mr. Fallin. I will have it ready for you first thing in the morning." Sheila said as she smiled and gave Burton a nod of confidence. "Bye, Nicholas. It was good to see you again. Have a good evening!" Sheila cheerfully proclaimed. "Thank you. It was nice to see you as well." Nicholas said as he put on his coat and threw his school bag over his shoulder. Nicholas walked briskly in an attempt to keep up with his father as they headed out of the office and to his car. Once inside the car, Burton turned on the radio and appeared to be deep in thought. Nicholas hoped that this would keep his father from starting a conversation about the letter or worse yet, generating a stern lecture. At approximately two miles from home, Nicholas's hopes were shattered. "Nicholas," Burton sharply stated, "how are things going at school? And uh... I don't want to hear you say, 'I don't know' or 'I guess, okay'." Nicholas pondered the question and knew that this was a lose-lose situation. "I like the school, but I don't have a lot of friends there." Nicholas had been attending Oxridge for the last year and a half, starting shortly after the divorce. Burton felt that since Nicholas was living with his mother, a structured and strict school environment was essential. Burton always felt that Anne was too lenient with Nicholas, never enforcing the rules and protecting him too much. The switch from the public school system to Oxridge was not an easy one for Nicholas and certainly did not transpire without significant protest. Burton naturally put a quick stop to the complaining and Nicholas unhappily accepted the change. Despite his unwillingness, Nicholas gravitated to the competitive nature of the school and appeared to settle-in nicely with the other bright children. This letter was, therefore, the first negative-sounding correspondence Burton was aware of. "How could you not have any friends, Nicholas? You have been attending Oxridge for nearly two years now!" Burton bellowed with frustration. Nicholas hung his head and did not respond. Burton realized he had probably shouted a bit too loudly. "I'm sorry, Nicholas. I didn't mean to yell like that...I just don't understand why you don't make an effort to fit in there." "I never wanted to go there in the first place." Nicholas said gritting his teeth, almost under his breath. "What did you say?" Burton asked, knowing full well what was just said. "Nothing." Nicholas said with a tone of submission. Burton knew that he had no desire to go down that road again, so he let Nicholas's snide comment pass without a reprimand. "So, how are your grades? Do you still have all 'A's' or is there something else you should tell me?" Less than a mile from home and all Nicholas could think about was running upstairs to his room and blocking everything out...pretending the problem did not exist. Instead, here he sat, trapped in a car with his angry father. "I have 'A's' in every class except math, science and social studies." Nicholas sullenly replied. "What do you mean every class except math, science and social studies? What else is there? Am I to assume that the only class you currently have an 'A' in is English? Burton shouted. "Well, I also have an 'A' in my foreign language class." Nicholas said somewhat defensively. "Oh, I'm sorry." Burton said sarcastically. "So basically you are demonstrating proficiency with reading and writing sentences in English and Spanish. That's wonderful news, assuming Harvard decreases their admission requirements ten-fold by the time you are ready to attend college!" With a deep sigh of frustration, Burton firmly asked, "So, Nicholas, what exactly are your grades in science, math and social studies?" Nicholas was clutching his school bag that laid across his lap as they pulled into the driveway. "Don't even think about getting out of this car until you answer me." Burton ordered, knowing that Nicholas was avoiding the question. With the car parked in the garage, Nicholas quietly said, "I have a C+ in science, a B- in math, and a B in social studies." "When were you planning on telling me this, Nicholas? Were you going to wait until the next set of reports came home...before it is too late to fix the problem?" Burton sternly remarked. Part of his frustration stemmed from the fact that he was oblivious to what was happening in Nicholas's life. He didn't have time to stay on top of Nicholas's schoolwork and his nanny, although a very sweet woman, was not one to enforce Burton's homework and studying rules. Realizing that the conversation had hit a brick wall, Burton stated, "Nicholas, go to your room and start your homework. I want to see every piece of paper you plan on turning in tomorrow and I want to see graded work that you have in your possession. You are going to fix every mistake on past work, even if it doesn't count towards your overall grade." "Yes, sir." Nicholas timidly replied. As he started to open the car door, Burton stopped him and said, "Things are going to change around here, Nicholas. I do not want to find out through your teachers that you are regressing academically from this point on. We will continue this conversation later. Now go to your room." "Yes, sir." Nicholas said as he quickly slid out of the front seat and darted for the door to the house. He hung his coat neatly in the foyer closet and ran, leaping every other step, up the long winding stairs to his room. He wanted desperately to slam the door, throw himself on the bed, and cry into his pillows. He couldn't take the pressure of it all anymore. He was missing his mother terribly, while his father's only worry revolved around maintaining perfection in school. Nicholas could barely focus in class, as his thoughts would constantly wander. He couldn't help but think about his mother and how miserable he was without her, especially living in a big strange house where everything was "off limits" (as his father would often say). He couldn't express these feelings to his father, as crying or any discussion about emotions was simply not welcomed or tolerated. Ever since Anne's death, Nicholas felt immobilized with grief. He didn't want to talk to anyone and he surely didn't want to socialize with the kids at school. Nicholas was hoping that he could resolve his sudden drop in grades before the next progress report was sent out. He had everything under control...or so he thought. He opened up his school bag and placed his books in an orderly fashion on his desk. Reluctantly he sat down and began the arduous task of sorting through his late, poorly completed assignments. Feeling overwhelmed, but knowing that he would never be allowed to leave his room until he had something constructive to show his father, he set to work. It was nearly 7 o' clock and Burton faintly knocked on Nicholas's bedroom door. Without waiting for a reply, he opened the door, only to see Nicholas with his eyes closed and his head resting on a stack of books on his desk. "Nicholas!" Burton shouted. Nicholas quickly snapped out of it and glanced up at his father. "Sorry...I was just resting a minute." "So, what did you accomplish?" Burton tried to patiently ask as he sat down on the edge of Nicholas's bed next to his desk. "I finished my math work and I am half-way through writing my science lab report." Nicholas said with his head lowered. "Let me see." Burton ordered as he reached out his hand to grab the papers off Nicholas's desk. "Hmmm..this looks pretty good....this looks okay and.... oh, you need to add a comma here." Burton said pointing to a sentence Nicholas had written in the science report. "So, what is the problem, Nicholas? Why are you allowing yourself to fall behind when you clearly understand the material? Hmm?" "I don't know." Nicholas reluctantly said, knowing that this was never an acceptable answer in his father's eyes. "Well, you better figure it out, Nicholas." Burton said calmly, but sternly, "If I don't see some improvement, then you leave me no other choice but to move you to another school, one that will provide constant supervision and structure. I thought I had found that in Oxridge, but clearly not. The next step here, Nicholas, will involve making a change to a boarding school. You need to understand that these are your choices. You either get it together and stay on track or I will send you to Wellington." Wellington was a highly prestigious boarding school for boys in Connecticut, known for producing Ivy League caliber students and providing a very disciplined learning and living environment. It was the type of institution that made parents drool and boys despise. Burton continued with a serious tone to his voice, "If that is what you want, then continue on this path of self-destruction. If you wish to stay at Oxridge, then I want you to write up a detailed proposal as to how you plan to improve your current situation. Is that clear?" Nicholas felt tears welling up in his eyes. His father had warned him on an earlier occasion that boarding school was a very real and serious consequence when he had failed to check in with his nanny one day after school. Apparently she panicked and called Burton at the office when Nicholas did not come home at the normal scheduled time. Burton, forgetting that Nicholas had told him that morning that he was going to Jacob's house after school to work on a project, left in the middle of a meeting to search for him. Despite efforts on Nicholas's part to respectfully remind his father that he had told him about his plans earlier, the whole scene ended on a bad note. It was then that the boarding school comment was interjected, among several other things, in the hour-long session in his father's study. After a few seconds of silence, Burton prodded again, "Do you understand me, Nicholas?" Nicholas nodded with his eye averted towards the floor. He couldn't speak for fear that he would start crying. "Okay, then. That's settled." Burton said as he stood up from Nicholas's bed. "Mary left her phenomenal beef stew and homemade bread for dinner so, why don't you get cleaned up and let's get something to eat, huh?" Burton tried to smile, but Nicholas did not reciprocate the expression. Nicholas had no appetite and he much preferred to be alone, but he knew that there was no point in arguing. "Yes, sir. I will be down in a minute." Nicholas said with little enthusiasm. "Good. Good." Burton said walking out the room. As Burton walked down the stairs towards the kitchen, he thought about the letter and how so many things caught him off guard. He couldn't help but wonder why Nicholas wasn't working up to his potential and why he was so reclusive. Anne always took care of school matters and Burton could not recall a time in Nicholas's education when he was ever at risk of receiving an A-, let alone a C+! Furthermore, Nicholas always kept to himself, even at home. So, was the lack of socializing really anything new? Burton remembered countless evenings where they would sit down for dinner and within minutes Nicholas was asking to be excused from the table to go read in his room. Burton never liked how Anne would dismiss him and never insist that they eat as a family for more than ten minutes. Nicholas spent most of his time on weekends reading and hanging out in his room too. Rarely did he do things with friends or become engaged in an extra-curricular sports. As Burton warmed the stew on the stove, he realized that perhaps Nicholas needed something more steady in his life, even more than the nanny he hired. Despite his conversation with Nicholas moments earlier, Burton made up his mind that, proposal or no proposal from Nicholas, Wellington Academy was the best option. He would solidify enrollment and call Oxridge tomorrow to inform them of his decision. PART II Burton Fallin was in the kitchen setting the table and keeping his eye on the stew simmering on the stove. Mary, Nicholas’s nanny, was a very gracious woman, always preparing home-cooked meals for the Fallins on Tuesdays when it was her day off. Even though Burton had a regular cleaning lady who did most of the cooking, Mary always made sure there were healthy snacks and easy-to-prepare foods in the fridge to prevent last minute fast-food runs. There was very little that Burton wouldn’t eat; however, Nicholas was a different story. A picky eater from birth, Nicholas was given leeway to eat things that were not part of the prepared meal. Funny how this always bothered Burton when Anne would permit such behavior, yet here he was, falling into the same trap. Burton acquired the attitude that some nutrition was better than none. It had been approximately fifteen minutes since Burton had left Nicholas’s room and he still had not decided how he was going to address the issue of attending Wellington. Initially, Burton was willing to offer Nicholas an opportunity to redeem himself academically at Oxridge. However, Burton’s logical thinking kicked in during his short trip from Nicholas’s room to the kitchen. Burton reminded himself that he was the parent and that Nicholas could not possibly know what is best for his future. Leaving such a monumental decision about education up to a 12 year old was absolutely absurd. Burton felt in his heart that Wellington would offer more structure and opportunity for Nicholas than attending Oxridge and interacting with a nanny six days a week as a primary caregiver. As he moved about the kitchen deep in thought, Burton noticed Nicholas walking into the room. His son had changed out of his school uniform and was wearing a pair of khaki pants and a light blue, Shetland Polo sweater, which brought out his bright eyes. His blonde hair was tousled, but in a fashionable way. Burton couldn’t help but notice how handsome and striking his son was. Nicholas definitely had acquired Anne’s attractive features and presence. “Hi, Nicholas. You hungry?” Burton asked with a smile on his face. Nicholas felt a sense of relief in having caught a glimpse of his father’s expression. Perhaps he could eat without enduring another lecture. “I am a little hungry.” Nicholas said with his eyes lowered. “Good. Dinner is almost ready. Why don’t you grab something to drink…preferably some milk.” Burton said with a smirk as he saw Nicholas reaching for a can of soda out of the refrigerator. Nicholas did as he was told and grabbed a glass from the cupboard and reached for the gallon of milk. Burton replenished his scotch on the rocks and then brought two large bowls of steaming beef stew and homemade bread to the table. Nicholas always sat to the right of Burton, who occupied the head of the table. The dining room table was really too large for the two of them, as it comfortably sat eight without the addition of any leaves. Since Burton rarely entertained now that Anne was gone, Nicholas could not understand the need for such a massive table. Nicholas was hungrier than he thought, nearly finishing his entire bowl of stew. This was a rare event, as normally Burton would deny him permission to be excused from the table until he ate a few more bites of this or that. The meal took place in complete silence since Burton was preoccupied with reading the newspaper. “May I please be excused?” Nicholas asked with a quick glance over to his father. Burton peered over his glasses that were on the tip of his nose to look at Nicholas’s bowl. “Is that the best you can do?” Burton asked despite knowing the answer. “Yes, sir. I’m full.” Nicholas said looking down at the table. “Yes, you may put your dishes in the dishwasher, but you need to come back and sit at the table.” Burton directed. Nicholas was not sure what to make of the order, but he did as he was told. Upon returning to the table, Burton folded up his newspaper and slid his dishes off to the side. “Great,” Nicholas thought to himself, “here comes lecture number two.” “Nicholas, I have given the letter you showed me from Oxridge a great deal of thought and I have made some decisions about how we are going to proceed.” Burton said in a serious tone. “I know I suggested earlier that you write a proposal as to how you plan on improving this academic mess you have made for yourself, but…” Burton released a deep sigh, “I have changed my mind.” Nicholas’s eyes filled as he braced himself for the dreaded information. “Look at me, Nicholas.” Burton said quietly. “This is just not working. With the horrific hours I put in at the office and your being stuck here with Mary six days a week, there just isn’t enough structure and stability here for you.” Burton paused, staring at Nicholas for some sort of reaction. Despite his father’s request, Nicholas could not maintain eye contact. He did not want his father to see him crying and he knew that he was on the brink of a major catharsis. “I have decided that after this marking period ends, you will begin attending Wellington, which…according to my calculations, would be in three weeks.” Burton said in a definitive tone. Nicholas sat there dumbfounded and upset. Moments earlier his father had sat on his bed informing him that he was willing to give him a second chance. What could he possibly have done wrong in that short period of time to force his father to change his mind? “Do you understand where I am coming from, Nicholas?” Burton prodded with a concerned look on his face. At that point, Nicholas didn’t care if he got in trouble. He was hurt and he was not going to accept this decision without expressing his frustration. “No, I don’t understand and I don’t think this is fair!” Nicholas said with conviction as a tear began to roll down his cheek. “I am doing fine at Oxridge….you - - you don’t understand….I just got a little behind, but I have everything under control. I can handle the work and I promise I will have all of my grades back to solid ‘A’s’ by the end of this week. Why won’t you give me a chance?” By now, Nicholas was rubbing his eyes, trying desperately to keep more tears from emerging. He was sniffling and fidgeting in the chair, not wanting to be in this predicament for another second. “Nicholas, I know you are angry and I know this is not what you want but…” Burton paused, “You need things that I cannot provide for you given the demands of my job. We had this conversation a month ago and we agreed that we would try a nanny. I hired one and look where we are now? I see no improvements!” Burton said in frustration. “But…it has only been a month.” Nicholas said pleadingly while wiping back tears. “Nicholas, I cannot afford to wait another month. Not when your educational future is at stake.” “All you care about are my grades and whether or not I follow your rules! You just don’t want me around….you never have! I knew that after Mom died you would find a creative way to get rid of me!” Nicholas shouted. “Nicholas, that is not true. You are missing the point.” Burton said trying desperately to ignore Nicholas’s disrespectful comment. “Well, what is the point then?” Nicholas asked defiantly, partly shocked that he had the courage to talk like this to his father. “Nicholas, I am not going to argue with you. My decision is final and since neither one of us is in the right frame-of-mind right now, we can discuss the details of this transition later.” Burton said while standing up and walking his dirty dishes over to the sink. Burton glanced over at Nicholas from across the counter-top and it was clear that he was not taking this well. The boy’s eyes and nose were slightly red, and he sat in a submissive, defeated position in the tall kitchen chair. Burton couldn’t help but notice how young he looked at that moment. Nicholas always seemed so mature and independent, exercising extensive vocabulary and analytical skills. Burton often saw him as a young adult and not the little boy that he actually was. Watching Nicholas fidget at the kitchen table, Burton knew that Nicholas was waiting anxiously to be dismissed. “Nicholas, you are excused. Why don’t you go and finish your schoolwork before bedtime? You only have an hour left before it’s lights out.” Burton said trying to refocus the conversation on household routines. “I know what time it is. I may not be getting all ‘A’s’ in school, but I still know how to tell time.” Nicholas stated defiantly while trying to avoid eye contact. “I’m told that is a pre-requisite at Harvard too.” “Nicholas! That will be enough!” Burton scolded. “Go to your room!” Nicholas stood up out of his chair and gave his father a spiteful look as he began to walk away from the table. Burton cleared his throat loudly, signaling to Nicholas that he expected some kind of a response to his order. “Yes, sir.” Nicholas said begrudgingly while looking at the floor. Despite his extreme anger, Nicholas knew he had to tone it down a bit or else he would hear the command, ’Nicholas, my office, now!’ from his father. Although not used frequently, corporal punishment was certainly a disciplinary tool that Burton was not afraid to implement and Nicholas was quite aware of when he was close to crossing that line. Nicholas slowly worked his way down the marble clad hallway to the main stairwell. As he approached his room, he began to think about Wellington and what it would be like to literally live at school. The thought was certainly not an appealing one. Nicholas flopped down on his bed, after closing his bedroom door, and looked at his desk piled with books, overdue papers, and half-finished work. Part of him didn’t care whether he failed or not and then another part of him wanted desperately to please his father by maintaining a stellar academic performance. Meanwhile, Burton was in the kitchen loading the dishwasher and pouring another scotch. He had had a tremendously stressful day at the office and the last thing he needed was to be told by Oxridge Academy that his son was regressing socially and academically. In addition, he was worried about these outbursts of blatant disrespect that Nicholas was showing towards authority. As Burton took his drink into his study, he thought about how little he understood the pre-teen years. Perhaps Nicholas’s behavior wasn’t so atypical after all? Burton loosened his tie, removed his suit coat, and sat back in his leather chair at his desk. He began to rub his brow and mustache while staring at the pictures on his desk. One photo was of Nicholas taken a year before the divorce at Anne’s family’s beach house. Nicholas shared the same smile, eyes, and gorgeous hair as his mother. He looked so happy in the picture and it almost appeared as if Nicholas was laughing when the photo was taken. Burton couldn’t remember the last time he heard Nicholas laugh. Nicholas got up from his bed and situated himself once again at his desk. He stared at the wealth of algebraic equations before him and decided that he couldn’t sit there and accept his father’s decision without making a gallant effort to change his mind. So, instead of working on problems #4-25 on page 142, Nicholas pulled out a piece of blank paper and began writing a detailed proposal which would state the plan he would follow to ensure that he stayed on track at school. He methodically organized his statements and prepared himself to answer all the questions and concerns that he anticipated his father would have. He glanced at the clock on his bedside table which read 8:46. He still had fourteen minutes before he had to be in bed. He knew he couldn’t wait to address this issue tomorrow, as once his father had an idea embedded in his head he was quick to place things into action. Nicholas knew that by tomorrow at 8:00 am it would be too late. Burton sat at his desk looking over the documents for the closing tomorrow on a business merger. He had double-checked everything and he was feeling quite confident that all would go well during the meeting. As he was organizing the papers back into their appropriate files, he heard a knock on his study door, which he always kept closed when he was working. “Come in.” Burton said with a hint of annoyance in his voice. “Dad?” Nicholas politely asked as he peered in. “May I talk to you for a minute?” “You are supposed to be in your room, Nicholas.” Burton stated firmly. “I didn’t give you permission to come down and furthermore, it’s almost your bedtime.” Burton sternly remarked as he glanced at his expensive wristwatch. “I know…I’m sorry.” Nicholas said quietly with his head lowered. “I just wanted to show you my proposal, um, um… the proposal that you suggested I write.” “Nicholas, I already told you what my plans are. You need to accept my decision and move on. I am not willing to discuss this anymore. Do you understand me?” Burton said with a look of complete frustration and impatience. “I heard what you said earlier, but I gave this proposal a lot of thought and I am truly committed to making the changes necessary to get my academic performance back on track.” Nicholas stated with a bit of personal satisfaction that he had successfully memorized his persuasion plan. Still standing in front of Burton’s desk, having not been given permission to take a seat, Nicholas glanced at his father to assess the damage. “Nicholas, you need to go to bed. Now go on upstairs and I will be up in a minute.” Burton said with sternness. He never fathomed that this discussion would still be going on. Normally when he reprimanded Nicholas, the problem was solved and there would be an immediate change in his behavior. Consequently, Burton could not understand why Nicholas was still challenging him on a closed issue. “I don’t want to go to boarding school and you can’t make me!” Nicholas angrily shouted. “I want to stay at Oxridge and live here. Mom would never send me away! I hate you just as much as she did!” Nicholas crumpled up his proposal and threw it on the beautiful Oriental rug that lay in front of Burton’s impressive mahogany desk. He quickly turned on his heels and literally ran out of the study with tears streaming down his face. Burton stood up abruptly from his chair and briskly headed out into the foyer, only to catch a glimpse of Nicholas bolting up the winding stairs to his room. He heard his bedroom door slam and then pure silence other than the majestic grandfather clock ticking in his study. Burton scratched the top of his head and then wiped his mustache. He truly had no idea what to do. The ability to parent would certainly never be a skill that he would add to his professional resume. Anne was always the one to handle Nicholas during situations like this. If Nicholas came home from school upset about something, Anne would bake cookies with him or engage him in some board game or household project. It was during these activities that Nicholas would soften and begin to disclose what was bothering him. Anne knew how to entice Nicholas to express his emotions, while making him feel safe and loved in the process of sharing. Anne never meant to judge, but Burton could tell that it saddened her that he was not more of a father to Nicholas. He was primarily known for being the disciplinarian and not the parent dispensing hugs and kisses. Anne would always tell Burton that he was too hard on Nicholas and that he scared the boy. Anne used to say, “Burton, why must you always shout at him. He is doing the best he can. If you would back-off a little, then maybe he wouldn’t be so uncomfortable around you.” Burton was not as oblivious to the tension that existed between him and Nicholas as Anne thought. He saw the nervous glances Nicholas would give him. Conversations between them never progressed unless Burton prodded him with a zillion questions. Despite the frustration, Burton was certain he was fulfilling other fatherly duties by providing financial stability and privileges that most children would never experience. While Burton pondered what to do, Nicholas was in his room crying as he changed into his pajamas. Despite Nicholas’s deep feelings of anger and betrayal, he was still following the rules, making sure he was in bed by 9:00. Nicholas climbed into bed, turned of the lights and pulled the blankets and sheets over his head. He curled into a ball and wept. He didn’t care that his schoolwork wasn’t completed or that his desk was a mess (something that normally would have bothered him). Burton picked up the ball of paper that Nicholas had thrown on the floor in his study and he began to carefully pry it open. He was impressed with the organization and clarity of its contents. Clearly Nicholas had put a great deal of time and consideration into drafting such a proposal. It had a table with actions and consequences and Burton could not believe how hard Nicholas was on himself. Nicholas had highlighted several academic goals and had provided detailed protocols as to how to obtain those goals. Failure to do so resulted in various consequences, all of which were clearly defined in his paper. From a writing standpoint, it was hard to believe that Nicholas was only 12, as he showed maturity and wisdom beyond his years. Feeling a bit guilty that he did not, at the very least, listen to Nicholas’s plan, he felt he should go and tuck him in for the night. Upon reaching his room, however, he saw that the lights were out and he could distinctly hear soft crying coming through the door. Not feeling comfortable addressing this scene, Burton quietly walked away from the door and headed back down to the kitchen to make another drink. Perhaps it would be best to talk to Nicholas at a later time. After all, Burton knew that the whole ordeal would blow over in a couple of days any way. PART III It was 6:15 in the morning and Burton Fallin was buttoning his dress shirt in the master bedroom. He yawned widely than shook his head to clear it. He’d spent a restless night thinking about Nicholas and the dispute that arose over attending Wellington. He was hoping that a hot cup of coffee would help wake him up, but he really just wanted to crawl back into bed. Mary was already in the kitchen starting the coffee pot and placing napkins and silverware on the kitchen table where the Fallin men typically sat for breakfast. Not knowing what either Burton or Nicholas would eat, Mary had begun to lay an assortment of breakfast items out on the marble countertop. As she began to pull out the large skillet from beneath the stove, she realized that she had not put her hair up in its usual bun. She quickly went to the closet and rummaged through her purse in pursuit of some hairpins. She stepped into the bathroom off the kitchen to bundle up her curly brunette locks. Mary loved the simple elegance of the household décor, including the bathrooms. Burton had hired an expensive interior design company to decorate and furnish the entire home. Not one corner was overlooked and Burton was certainly not frugal in his purchases. After washing her hands, Mary glanced in the mirror and smiled at her ability to style her hair. Her pale skin was screaming for a sun-filled vacation, but she knew that it would be awhile before she could request time off. Mary promptly returned to the kitchen to finish placing cereal, bread, and jam out on the counter. She was used to letting herself in promptly at 6:00 am to help with the morning rush, and she had become quite deft at whipping up a batch of pancakes, eggs, and sausage at a moments notice. Later she would perform routine household chores until Nicholas came home from school. Even though she had only been with the Fallins for one month, she was quite attached to both of the “boys”. “Hey, good morning, Nick!” Mary said cheerfully as Nicholas stepped into the kitchen. “Good morning, Mrs. Portis.” Nicholas said without much enthusiasm. Nicholas had his school uniform on and he was fixing his tie as he entered the room. His navy blue blazer, crisp white shirt, red and navy blue striped tie, and dress pants made him look like he was ready to hit the fashion runway, modeling the latest and greatest in prep-school attire. Nicholas had a physique that enabled him to look stylish and handsome in whatever he wore. His school uniform was no exception. Mary was certain that if Nicholas were to attend a co-ed school, the phone would be ringing nonstop with girls hoping to catch his attention. Unaware of the events that had transpired the day before, Mary assumed that Nicholas’s red eyes were caused by insufficient sleep. The thought never occurred to her that they were the result of hours of crying throughout the night. “You look pretty tired today! My guess is that your father broke down and let you stay up past your bedtime last night, huh?” Mary said teasingly, as she retrieved the freshly squeezed orange juice that was chilling in the refrigerator. Nicholas just shrugged his shoulders and made no effort to communicate. “So, what sounds good to you for breakfast, Nicholas?” Mary said recognizing that Nicholas was not in a talkative mood. “May I just have some orange juice? I’m not very hungry.” Nicholas stated quietly. “Hmm..how about you eat at least one piece of toast with peanut butter on it, along with your juice, and I will call it good?” Mary said with a smile. Bargaining with Nicholas over what he will and won’t eat was a daily process and one that Mary had become quite skilled at. “Okay. That’s fair.” Nicholas said with a quick, tight smile. “Morning, Mary. Morning, Nicholas.” Burton stated as he walked in the room with his impeccably tailored suit and briefcase in hand. “How’s everyone doing today?” “Great! How about you?” Mary cheerfully asked while Nicholas sat silent. “Good, thanks,” Burton said as he poured himself a cup of coffee. “Mr. Fallin, may I fix you something for breakfast?” Mary asked as she handed Burton the paper. “No, no. I’m fine. I have an important meeting early this morning and I will grab something quick to eat at the office. Thank you though.” Burton said as he patted Mary’s shoulder and moved over to the kitchen table. “Wow. You guys are making my job incredibly easy today!” Mary said as she brought Nicholas his one slice of toast with peanut butter and a glass of orange juice. “That’s all you’re eating?” Burton asked without directly addressing Nicholas. Nicholas just nodded and Mary chimed in, “Well, that was the best I could finagle today. Perhaps we will have better luck next time.” Nicholas ate a few bites of his toast and then lost interest. He was still incredibly angry with his father and he had to bite his cheek to keep from yelling. He wished more than ever that his mother were at the kitchen table with them. Anne would for sure tell his father how awful he was for even thinking about sending his son away. Nick sat a few minutes with his eyes fixated on his plate before his father interrupted his concentration. “Nicholas, if you are not going to eat that, go on upstairs and get your school bag ready. I want to be on the road in 10 minutes. Okay?” Burton said glancing at his watch. “Yes, sir.” Nicholas said with a sigh of relief as he got up from the chair and took his plate over to the sink. Nicholas was beginning to walk out of the kitchen when Burton beckoned, “Hey, Nicholas, come here.” With slight apprehension, Nicholas turned around and began to approach his father with his head lowered. He really did not want to discuss the scene from last night and he certainly did not want to hear another lecture. “Your tie is crooked. Come here a sec and let me fix it for you.” Burton motioned Nicholas to come closer with his hand. “Gee, this thing doesn’t want to cooperate.” Burton said, as he pulled and straightened Nicholas’s tie. “Okay….well, at least it looks a little better. The last thing I need today is to get a phone call from your school saying you are not dressed properly on top of everything else.” “May I go upstairs now?” Nicholas asked still standing in front of his father who remained seated at the table. “Sure.” Burton said with a quick smile, noticing how much his son’s eyes looked like Anne’s. From a genetics standpoint, it was clear to Burton that the laws of probability worked in Nicholas’s favor, as he acquired many of Anne’s stunning features. As Nicholas left the room, Mary approached the table and said, “Mr. Fallin, is everything all right with Nicholas? He seems really tired today, more so than usual.” “Funny you should ask,.” Burton stated with a quick eye roll, as his hand ran across his brow and down his face. “As a matter of fact, yesterday was not a good day!” Burton gave a nervous chuckle. “I received a letter from Oxridge saying that he is falling behind in his academic studies and is withdrawing socially. To make a long story short, I made the decision last night that Nicholas will begin attending boarding school at the start of the new term. Nicholas is less than thrilled about my decision and it led to a rather tense evening here.” “Oh, I see,” Mary said with a look of concern. “Don’t worry, Mary.” Burton said as he looked at her with a sincere expression. “You will still be needed on a daily basis around here! God knows I need all the help I can get! Plus, I need you around for school breaks and vacations.” “Oh, I wasn’t worried about me, Mr. Fallin. I appreciate your looking out for me though, really I do. I was just thinking about Nicholas and how hard this adjustment might be for him. Is there something I can do to help with this transition?” “He’ll manage.” Burton said as he stood up from the table and headed toward his study to retrieve some paperwork. Mary couldn’t help but think how such a move could slowly destroy Nicholas. He was so young and desperately in need of love and attention, especially with the recent death of his mother. Nicholas presented a tough, independent image on the outside, but he really was longing for someone to give him a hug and take care of him. Mary noticed on many occasions how he would claim that he was ‘fine’ whenever she asked how he was doing, but after careful prodding, he would open up and disclose issues that were upsetting him. It wasn’t often that Nicholas would share with her, but she cherished those situations in which they connected. After quickly tidying up the kitchen, Mary ran upstairs, hoping to get a minute alone with Nicholas. As she entered his room, Nicholas was in the process of swinging his leather mission-style bag over his shoulder. “Hey, Nicholas. I was hoping to catch you!” Mary said with her usual upbeat charm. “Can you sit down for minute?” Nicholas glanced at his watch and he said, “I only have a few seconds before I have to be downstairs. My dad will be really angry if I am late.” “I know. I know. I’ll keep it short.” Mary said as both she and Nicholas sat down on the edge of Nicholas’s meticulously made bed, a chore that Nicholas was responsible for on a daily basis. “I just want to make sure you are doing okay…and I mean REALLY doing okay? Your father told me everything this morning and I am worried about you.” “I’m fine.” Nicholas stated in an abrupt, matter-of-fact manner. “He doesn’t care about what I want so it is pointless for me to tell him how I feel.” “Did you try?” Mary said with concern. “Yes, I did. Twice! Both times I just got sent to my room. I know he doesn’t want me living here and with my grades slipping, he found the perfect reason to send me away. I guess it’s really my fault when you look at it that way.” Nicholas said with his head lowered while fidgeting with his school bag on his lap. “Nicholas, that’s not true. I know your father wants what is best for you and right now, I sense that he feels boarding school will help you be successful.” Mary stated with a note of optimism. “Is that what you think, too?” Nicholas asked in a slightly challenging tone without making eye contact. “I’m not sure I can answer that fairly, Nicholas.” Mary said with a caring gesture. “Nicholas!” Burton’s voice was echoing in the long, elegantly decorated hallway outside Nicholas’s room. “Nicholas! We are going to be late. Get your stuff and let’s go!” Burton shouted with annoyance from the marble foyer below. Both Mary and Nicholas got up and hurriedly left the room. “Don’t worry, Nicholas. I will tell him that I detained you up here. Okay?” Mary said as she wrapped her arms around his shoulders and gave him a quick squeeze. “Sorry, Mr. Fallin. Nicholas is running a bit late because of me.” Mary said as they reached the bottom of the stairs. Burton was standing there with his expensive cashmere coat on and sharp, leather briefcase in hand. Ignoring Mary’s comment, Burton asked sternly, “Nicholas, where is your coat?” “It’s in the closet.” Nicholas said with his head lowered. “Well, go and get it. Come on, we should be in the car by now.” Burton said as he lightly tapped Nicholas on the backside with his briefcase as Nicholas scurried past him to acquire his coat. Nicholas put on his coat and headed down the hall behind his father to the door leading to the garage off the laundry room. “Oh, Mary. I almost forgot. I have some dry-cleaning that I need to have picked up. Could you take care of that for me?” Burton said as he hit the garage door opener. “Sure thing. Consider it done!” Mary said trying to be cheerful. “Nicholas, I will see you at 4 o’clock today, right?” “Yes, ma’am.” Nicholas said quietly as he was getting into his father’s brand new Cadillac. “Good! Have a great day gentlemen!” Mary said as she waved and watched the car back out of the long, circular drive. TO BE CONTINUED